| This summer sucks |
[7 Aug 09\6:49pm] |
You see, I`m sitting here in front of the computer. And I want to cry. Why? I like to say that it doesn't matter but it does because I think about it every day and at night no matter how hard I try not to I dream about it and I wake up and make me want to hit my head on every wall. But like always with my stupid life I have no life, School is like all fucking day 9-5 and it drives me nuts. Then I have to come home study because some fucking exam or I wont work. I hate this shit. So I sit in class and just try so hard to ignore it but its at the back of my mind...just there reminding me of how much sometimes everything sucks for me. Its always an argument or something and im getting tired of it and what do i do. I run from it, I stop talking about it I just give up. But I hate it. I don't want to do that. So I come home and I sit on my bed and look at all of my developed pictures and see the fun times we had. Do I miss her? yes I always did and I always felt bad every time i fought with her. Would I call her to say hi? I would I want to every time I pick up the phone out of reflex and just call to tell her something funny that happend to me or something I came up with and then i realize that I can't so I put the phone down and the fun ends. I can't even go for advice anymore, as she thinks that I do have friends to hang out with, I don't do anything but go to school and study now, ever since she left. It would suck to go back to school and see my best friend on the other side of the hallway and not be able to run up to her and hug her. And even the birthday present I got for her months ago....will I give it to her? I don't know.
Do I miss her?
yes.
Will I call her?
I don't know.
Will she call me?
I highly doubt knowing virgos.
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[9 Jul 09\2:23pm] |
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Must I say again, it kills me knowing every day that I feel like writing Danny but I have absolutly no desire rolling up to my computer and finding out like every day that I don't have the damn program.
Do I need a new computer? Yes. Do I need to work? Most likely.
Do I need to learn how to write? Bijou says I do, if she said that then I guess I do.
Boredom is killing me right now waiting for this little girl to wake up. Hoping just a little that I can go home tonight to have my sleep over. WHY MUST MONEY TAKE OVER THIS WORLD. Jesus.
Which remainds me, I came to find out that all my tax money is not actually going to my "new computer fund" and its actually going to my car insurance bill. I dispise growing up. So many shitty bills, it feels like money is slipping trought your fingers like sand.
On the brighter side of my life, I have a great best friend that keeps saying she hates me, a crazy guy that wont stop talking to me yet I ignore his text and crazy parents that don't even know what they want.
I need a new life.
This whole thing is random but Danny is slowly faiding away from my mind, I hate this feeling. I want him back so I could just have retarded conversations with him in my room while he sits there on my bed pretending to read the news paper. Same newspaper from 12 years ago. LOL
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[19 May 09\1:24pm] |
Text Convo on Blackbarry Daniilh8su and Romanian4you.
Daniilh8su: This is stupid.I don't understand why you made me get a phone.
Romanian4you: Well Noellie and her friends chat all the time...why can't we.
Daniilh8su: Its simple...I do not like you.
Romanian4you: (_( That is such a mean thing to say. Why must you be so heartless?
Daniilh8su:BECAUSE I WANT TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD YOU STUPID WOMAN!
Romanian4you: XD you and what army?
Daniilh8su: <<; you are annoying me. Stop it.
Romanian4you: God this SOL sucks.
Daniilh8su:You aren't suppose to use a phone in exams anyways, what the hell.
Romanian4you:...Its boring.
Daniilh8su:...wow. Paska...your stupid cat keeps clawing me....I'm about to stick it in the oven.
Romanian4you: DON'T YOU DARE! I swear I will bleach off of your black clothes if you do.
Daniilh8su:< <; woman, you don't know who you are messing with do you. Watch your back.
Romanian4you: UMMM I do believe you are the one living in my room.......
Daniilh8su: WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO INSULT ME!
Romanian4you: I am not stopping you from invading the world.
Daniilh8su: < <; I made this screen name thinking of you....
Romanian4you: AWW how sweet.
Daniilh8su: Yeah whatev.
Romanian4you: OMG since when do you Chat talk?
Daniilh8su: Since....never...
Romanian4you: Okay Mr.Gumpy face.
Daniilh8su: I HATE YOU...with passion.
Daniilh8su signs off.
Romanian4you is still on.
Romanian4you: He loves me.
Romanian4you signs off.
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